Knowledge is power!

Poor guy

cassidomination — Sat, 24 Oct 2009 18:15:34 +0000

I feel bad for Devin. All I ever talk about anymore is wedding related, and I can tell it bothers him. I’m just so excited, and there is so much that goes into a wedding. We aren’t going to have much help from our families with the cost of it all, and I’m just trying to get an idea of how much it’s going to cost, so we can start saving for it. This is a once in a lifetime event, I just want it to be perfect. I know I worry too much, and I know we have over a year before the wedding. This is probably going to sound a little crazy, but I keep waiting to wake up and find out that I’m not engaged, it was all just some crazy dream. And that’s why I talk about wedding plans so much, as a way to remind myself that yes, this really is real.

ring

cassidomination — Wed, 21 Oct 2009 17:54:57 +0000

I have a ring now, and I cried when he put it on my finger. It was his great grandmother’s. That’s a piece of his family history I;m wearing. And every time I look at it all I can think is, “And now I’m part of the family.” What’s really crazy is that it’s exactly the ring I would want, it’s just perfect. Sitting here looking at it, I’m about to start crying again.

I wonder if Devin’s Great Grandma had met me if she would have approved. Would she have wanted her ring on my hand? Would she have wanted me to become a part of this family? I don’t even know what her name was. I will have to ask Devin.

small world

cassidomination — Wed, 21 Oct 2009 05:13:46 +0000

So, I switched my relationship status on Facebook from in a relationship to engaged, because well I am. Anyway, I did that before I had to chance to tell anyone face to face. Everybody has been freaking out on me. ( “OMG! Why didn’t you tell me?!?!” Uh… I haven’t told anyone, just changed my status, geez guys chill out!) My poor Mom was the last person to find out, and she didn’t hear it from me. My cousin saw the status change, told her dad, who told my grandma, who called my mom to say congrats. O.o
Even one of mom’s co-workers knew, which is a little creepy, because she is not on my friends list or anything. So she was like spying on me via my Facebook page. *cue creepy music*

So, needless to say I was sure Mom was going to be pissed at me for not telling her sooner. And she was, but she understood when I explained that I wanted to tell her in person, and tonight was the first time I had seen her since Dev asked me to marry him. She got all teary eyed and kept hugging me. I’m still kind of in shock over that, Mom is not one to cry, like ever. But she seems happy enough for us.

ENGAGED

cassidomination — Mon, 19 Oct 2009 06:20:54 +0000

Tonight, Devin officially proposed. I don’t have a ring just yet, but that’ll change on Friday. Although, I’ve come to realize that I don’t really need the thing. As long as I have him, nothing else matters. I am pretty much just high on life right now. I’m not sure how my mom is going to handle the news, but whatever. I’m happier than I’ve ever been, and I’m not going to let her take that from me… not again. I lost Devin once before because of all her meddling, and how it made me doubt everything. It’s not happening again, period. I love Devin so much, we have a good thing going, and it’s only going to get better. I’m so happy!

Want That Job?

cassidomination — Sun, 18 Oct 2009 19:50:23 +0000

So, awhile ago I watched this thing on tv about things that can ruin your chances for getting a job. And one of the things they said was, tweeting about your interview. Which I thought was kind of odd. Wouldn’t that show interest and excitement in the possibilty of having this new position? I really don’t see anything wrong with that. I suppose if you posted something like, “I don’t think I did well on that interview.” Or, “Man, there’s no way I’m getting that job.” Sure, that could be problematic, showing that you have no self confidence. But they were saying even a positive tweet, such as, “The interview went well, I really hope I get the job.” Could hurt your chances of actually getting the job. To me, that just seems a little ridiculous. To be completely honest though, I wont be tweeting about anything related to job interviews, just to be on the safe side. It’s hard enough to find employment at the moment. I wouldn’t want to risk ruining my chances over something as silly as a tweet.

The “M” word

cassidomination — Thu, 15 Oct 2009 20:25:01 +0000

So, I really want to get married to Devin, as in right now. The feeling has been stronger than ever, since Devin’s little mis-speak the other day. We got 2 kittens awhile ago and we call them our “kids.” Anway the other day Devin was feeding them and said, some like, “See I’m being a good husband, taking care of the kids.” I already knew that he wants to marry me, we’ve talked about it plenty of times. It just made me think about how I want to be married now, and it seems like at least part of him does too.

I always dreamed of having a big wedding with all my family there, but at this point honestly, I would be okay with just getting married at the courthouse. As long as I’m with him I don’t really care. I love him so much.

Ring Pop

cassidomination — Thu, 08 Oct 2009 18:35:29 +0000

So Devin and I had a scare awhile ago, which put things into perspective for us. And he says he wants to marry me. I’m so happy! And I told him that even if he proposed with a Ring Pop, I would still say yes. Today what’s been on mind is that well, I want a ring! I didn’t think it was that important to me, but apparently it is. Honestly, I wouldn’t care if it was ring pop, or a piece or string, I just want that object… that solid proof that I’m never going to lose him again. I keep having these nightmares, where he leaves… Well not so much leaves, as he is just gone. In the dream, I’m running around the house calling for him, and he is nowhere to be found. A couple of times in the dream, I’ll even run outside, and his truck is gone. It’s the worst.

Some Background Info On Me

cassidomination — Wed, 07 Oct 2009 16:35:59 +0000

Most of what I intend to write is just going to be me babbling about everyday life, which might not sound that exciting, but I can guarantee it will be entertaining at the very least. Today, I’m just going to set the stage, I’ll start by introducing the players.
Mom- who is ridiculously overprotective, and has just recently realized I’m an adult, and am going to do what I want, whether she likes it or not.
Karl(Step-dad)- who is a drunk, enough said.
Kyla(Lil Sis)- who is the good little Christian girl, and while she would never admit it, thinks she is better than me.
Devin(Boyfriend)- we are in love, what more need I say?
Vicki(Other Mom)- Devin’s mom, whom I adore
Kyle(Brother?)- Devin’s lil brother, who is a bit of a handful, but can be such a peach when he wants to.
(Minor Characters- Dad, Step-mom and step-brother)

And then there’s me…. the slighty crazy girl who sells shoes for a living and geeks out on Sims 3, FFXI and BlazBlue Calamity Trigger. It’s funny how unlike my family I am, with my seven piercings (soon to be eight), and cropped short bleach blonde hair. Mom and Kyla keep hoping that somehow I’ll magically turn into a good girl. NEWS FLASH! Never going to happen, because I’m finally happy with who I am.

Okay enough about all that boring crap. Now foryour reading pleasure, a funny, but true story!

The other day, while playing FFXI (Final Fantasy XI for those not schooled in game) I was fighting this Goblin, who was throwing bombs and I yelled, “Fuck you and your fucking bombs, you fucking fuck!” And Devin and I could not stop laughing. I mean really who says something like that? WHy couldn’t I come up with a word other than “fuck”? I dunno, but it’s become my catch phrase now.

Which reminds me of another geek moment story, Devin and I were playing BlazBlue (obscure fighting game that nobody has ever heard of) and he managed to do an Astral Heat on me three times in a row. Which is ridiculous, because well it’s an incredibly difficult move to pull off and the character he was using’s Astral Heat is actually a counter attack. So I had to be dumb enough to hit him for it to work. Needless to say I was furious, so I turned to him, raised my hand and yelled, “Bitch I will sack tap you!” Which is so out of character for me, I never use the phrase “sack tap” and would never actually do that to guy, but still it’s what I said. In my defense I was rather intoxicated at the moment, but it was freaking hilarious none the less.